this weekend has been mildly hectic. sebastian has been absolutely three lately: stubborn, strong-willed, tempermental, dramatic, self-absorbed, obnoxious... he's also been funny and charming and handsome. so instead of sharing the antics (i.e., having blocks thrown at my head, my finger crushed when he slammed a door) i will share some things that i have found inspiring. this video has been circulating on the craftistas' blogs for some time but i never watched it completely until today (probably because i am not too keen on hugging) but something about it really touched me. watching all the strangers walking past this guy, then how some choose to partake on some human contact, i don't know, it just really made me think how strange it is that we are so cold and distant from each other when in reality our experience as humans is so precious and fleeting that we should be able to connect without being prompted to. being back in america has made this all the more present for me as i am naturally shy (i also forget that i can now communicate fluently if the situation should call for it) but aware of how many people try to smile and make eye contact compared with those who just remain in their own spheres. the increased use of cell phones, particularly those star trek/drive-thru ear pieces exasparates this trend. being pregnant with a three-year old doesn't afford me much invisibility but i have come to terms with my societal status as compared to being utterly flustered during my first pregnancy when strangers would request rather personal information about my state (due date, predicted gender, even my weight gain) then, in some instances, proceeding to touch my swollen belly. i realize now that children serve as a bridge that some people need in order to overcome the preceived distance. anyway, on to less sentimental topics. if you have never visited this website, then please go to treehugger tv. my favorites are the urban homestead and the end of this one that features the people's grocery. as an urbanite, i feel that there should be more initiatives like these. i still want to do something here in jacksonville but it is hard. most of the land within the city that would be available is toxic and those farms outside of the city are usually so small that they don't feel confident about handling the needs of such a large population. yet everytime i step outside and see these amazingly obese people rambling along, i really want to take action. a positive note for the short-term is that there seems to be a health food store opening in five points. i have been stalking the space every since they hung their coming soon banner and there are grocery shelves and fridge/freezers lining the walls. this would really help though i don't see much space for fresh produce which is something that the regular supermarket is also lacking. i would really like to get a farmer's market started in riverside or memorial park (very close by) but again there is the lack of local farmers to participate. i will continue working on this along with the idea of getting some sort of csa started within the springfield/riverside neighborhood after ingrid arrives. (18 days until my due date) one other interesting thing, this cartoon that we caught on jason's parents' television when we were visiting yesterday, . not only are these kids rather hip but charlie and lola are exactly the same age apart that sebastian and ingrid will be. hard to imagine sebastian ever being such a cool older brother but i can always hope. okay, just some stuff to share. hope everyone is well. take care.